new blog!!!
Hi everyone! The title says it all. I am going to post my next blogs at this new address.
http://aocy-nopainnogain.blogspot.com/
p/s: i will unlikely continue blogging on friendster.
Hi everyone! The title says it all. I am going to post my next blogs at this new address.
http://aocy-nopainnogain.blogspot.com/
p/s: i will unlikely continue blogging on friendster.
Lately, I realized i'm just hungry for inspiration. I am thinking of what I plan to do in the future. However, some of the plans that I want to accompolish hasn't even been accompolished! Yeesh.....
I have lots of ideas, creativity, style, aims, objectives that's about to explode any second in what I'm planning to do next. But, I feel that there's something that I lack... I just know I give it my best shot but somehow I just need something to just give a boost to that idea.
To get and feel inspired, I always look at everyday things...trying to get the right...no, perfect idea to generate from the tiny brain I have. Still, 'till now I can't seem to have a go at certain aspects. However, I'm very determined that one day I will find that idea.
It's frustrating when you had already set a goal in mind to accompolish it yet when the moment arrives it just vanishes in thin air. I'm seriously desperate for something...if it's a muse, I don't mind at all! Haha...Oh muse, just touch me so that i can get INSPIRED!
Time flies and I realized that I had finished form 5. It's just feels like yesterday that I was born, brought up, gone through primary, met friends, found my interest and now...heading for pre-u (although i will be in the same school). And to be in a pre-u position tells me that hey, boy...it's time for you to GROW UP...no more playing the fool!
I got to admit that doing pre-u means there's extra burden on my shoulder - more responsibility, more work burden, more things to settle, more outgoing, more independent...but less time to sleep! Still, I feel like i lack inspiration. To me, when dealing with a whole new environment I just feel i need some inspiration so that I can chase after my dreams.
It's difficult now to tell everyone that I have my own dreams to accompolish. Becoming a professional lecturer/teacher in the teaching profession isn't something easy neither is it difficult. At the same time, being a journalist and a reviewer play importants in todays world of entertainment, news and discovery. Organized and meticulous are two traits of an event manager in any events he puts up. As long as he meets up with the requirements, it will guarantee a satisfaction not only from customers but himself.
Hungering for inspiration makes me hungry. I'm gonna grab a bite and be back! Stay tuned.....
~The ability to convert ideas to things is the secret to outward success.~
Henry Ward Beecher
Call me crazy but I wish i were in school right now...don't care whether they catch me for coming late. But, it's damn boring in the house!
I am BACK for good! Thanks to my computer which needed "surgery" & left me in a lurch for 5 days as a zombie....I needed my computer badly...i'm suffocating!
Even with the computer back, I feel that it's super duper boring in the house. Well, it's more of a daily routine now...you wake up, brush teeth, bath, have breakfast, watch TV...i mean, i do get fed up with this type of daily routine.
School was different. Although you come everyday, there would be different things that could happen to you. A bad experience counts. Most of my friends had admitted that they miss their school life. I totally agree with them.
I feel like i'm half past six if i don't do something. Haiz!!! Sitting in the house and practically doing nothing important, it feels great but i'm missing companionship. Back in school, i just wished we had holidays. Now, i wish i was back in school.
Some of my friends had gone working but had stopped because they are pursuing their future undertakings. I on the other hand would continue form 6. Sigh, the class that I had been for 2 years is just going our seperate ways. No matter what, I hope that we will still keep in touch!
Well, at least i'm exercising my fingers writing this blog. Hey, now that's something I can do for the next 2 years!
Things happen for a reason. Somehow I didn't believe it but when there are obvious signs giving you a foresight of the future you just simply can't ignore it. You may have planned everything from the start. But under certain circumstances you would probably have to sit back and rethink. These signs will force you to think about the cons more that the pros. By the end of the day, it's either you grief or you feel relieved.
Day by day, I keep thinking what will the future hold for me. It's pretty scary sometimes when you think toooooo much and suddenly you feel like your energy had been zapped. You can't sleep, feel uneasy, loss at words and even frustrated. You will consider and even talk about things happening around you involving major issues like politics, the country's growth development, the downfall of one's economy to the minor issues - daily life, family problems, rivalry...you name it. Once you cramp everything into your tiny winy brain, all sorts of thoughts will rush into your head.
People nowadays are very greedy...well, not very greedy...too greedy until they neglect everything including their family ties. That's the worse. Imagine yourself living overseas with your uncle who talks big 'cause he can't do what he wants unlike back home. An aunty who thinks that she is bloody rich person, looks down on you & even treat you like a servant. Holy shit! A cousin who practically thinks the item that is as precious as gold to her is her Winx Club comic books! You will never even hear a word on - family. That's right...F-A-M-I-L-Y!!! Put yourself into a situation if your parents put you under your uncle's care and the whole family treats you like a servant - making you to do all the house work like shit while they don't even lift a finger...A FINGER...to help you. Bring in the in-laws and oh...it's Cinderella vacumning the carpet, Cinderella washing the dishes, cook the food...Cinderella this and that...! YOU COULD JUST IMAGINE HOW SICK YOU CAN GET!
However, if you look on the bright side you would just put on your thinking cap. Why did I come here in the first place? Has God wanted me to come over & see things for myself? Or...or would it be a blessing in disguise that He wanted me to be more independent and to remind me that this is my challenge to face the future? Think about it yourself.
Right now, this is what's happening to me. I can feel that my uncle & his family are seriously looking down on me. With eyes of a hawk, they observe and pin-point my every fault. Go ahead & think of me like a fool who doesn't even know how to take care of himself. Go ahead & spite me with all your might! Tell the whole world about my every single bloody shit mistake I made. BUT...never ever climb over my ahead 'coz one day I will show you what i'm made off. To you, money is a neccesity & you can be a big show off!!! You can boast your abilities claiming you are way ahead of people & without you, the whole world will collapse. NEVER......EVER...forget....that one mountain is always higher than the other.
To me, I think it's fated that I go over to his place & see things for myself. I hardly believed that my own uncle had changed so much until I can't see his old-self anymore. He used to be a different person YEARSSSSSSS ago. Today, I can only see the shadow of his body moving from one corner to another. He's selfish, boasts and talks to much. His family puts tooo high hopes on him just because of $$. All they want is a car to boast their wealth until the president MUST make way for them. What car? Mercedes.
From now onwards, I have to put my heart and soul to strive & achieve what I want in life. I have to show my determination & persistence in any work I do. Any obstacles in my way is not a problem because I believe every problem has a solution. I would be returning to my homeland...the land I was borned in, grown up, made friends & the land that moulded me to be an all-rounded person. I thought I was alone but seeing my other family members, teachers & my dearest friends.....it gave me the strength to carry on. I admire their determination, diligence and perseverence. And those were the qualities that made me grow stronger from each day. The flame of my heart has been burning with rage each day I think about my condition. ~Friends, thanks for giving me the courage.~
hey guys! finally after almost like three weeks in england, i will be coming home! my dear malaysia...home sweet home.
ah...it's finally a relief that i am coming back to where i belong. I think i almost emptied the whole candy shop in england. Yeah btw, I will be bringin back lots and lots chocolate for u guys. Haha...
School has started again. I know. I just felt like tak syok la not coming back to school. Don't know...but that's inside me. I felt that I missed quite a lot of things. Day and night when I stare at the clock I keep thinking what things are like back in Malaysia. It's true what people say ~ there's nothing like home.
I miss the food. I miss the culture. I miss my friends. I miss entirely everything about Malaysia ~ the soil, the plants, my dogs...etc (yeah, who thinks i'm crapping...go ahead)
Anywayz, i will be landing in Kl on the 8th of January. But i will only return to Ipoh the next day. Oh yeah, 8th of January is a memorable day for me coz it's wei liang & pravin's birthday. To wei liang & pravin, if you are reading this...happy birthday in advance yah! So first thing i will do is to call wei liang & wish him. Hehe...best buddies since std 1. I can imagine that!
Since it will be boring for me to stay in the house, I would probably go down to school on the 10th to visit my alma mater where my dearest friends, juniors, seniors, teachers & even the fishes at La salle centre are there. I can hardly believe that i would miss the fishes at La salle centre! Looks like they have got an impact on my life. Haha...
And on the 11th...it will be a special moment for me! Can anybody guess? Hehe...
Okay, that's all from me now. Byez & my regards to everyone in Ipoh! Will be back in no time to c u guys. Btw, I will be bringing back some bites for u guys to eat. Chiaoz.
Yo dudes (can't figure out the word for the girls)! How are you guys keeping? Being in London for the past few days (if i'm correct, that would be at least one week), I seriously find that I'm missing home right now & how I wish I want to come back! Coz day & night I keep thinking of you people, my friends and family etc...Seriously I just miss you guys. Every second I stare at the clock I would say that you guys are ahead of me for at least 8 hours.
Wehh...I seriously miss home. Ok, stop the whining and move on with the real journey. Fyi, i'm in colchester now with my dreadful annoying, pushover fat sister! Colchester is a subtown like Menglembu back in M'sia. Whereas, Ipoh is a town like London. Anyway, temperature wise here is like 5 degrees celcious...Lima darjah celcius!!! And it can even extend to -5 even during the colder nights.
Okay, put it like this,during the winter which is now your house is like the bottom section of the refrigerator whereas the outside is like a FREEZER! This only...(fortunately) only happens during the winter. Summer is lagi teruk! The house is like a sauna where as the outside is like an oven at 300 deg. celcius. No wonder the orang putih like to come to warmer climates for sun bathing coz their summer is like oven. No offence to the dark colour skin people. This is a non-discrimination blog...i repeat...this is a non-discrimination blog!
Now, experiencing a new atmosphere..i remembered me geography better! Argh...should have taken up geo instead of physics for SPM! So, basically i can tell you that it's winter solstis now! During the summer it will be summer solstis! Just to refresh your memory for geo during our days (fyi, i'm not that old!). And the number of day hours are shorter coz it gets dark at around 3.30pm & we can't even see the sun at all. NO!!!!!!!!!
Christmas is spent differently here cause the whole street would be shut down entirely for the holiday season. Guess how the orang putih spend their christmas? They simply eat...eat...eat...eat...eat. and eat...till dinner time. Well, saya orang asia so...i tak makan banyak. If you see the size of me brother-in-law, it would be twice of Kumara's size. (Attention: Dear Kumara, sorry for using you cause i got nobody else in my mind. Anyway, will get something for you cause you are the 'perfect' model in my mind! I rayu kepada semua orang jangan buli Kumara ya...kecuali saya)
Back to the story, their style of eating is different from malaysians coz they dont hav breakfast & lunch. They have only dinner and their helpings are at least 3 peoples lunch. We have every single meal but in small portions. So that's why we malaysians lead as healthier life. Haha...I hope that my comments won't get bombarded too much. If not...mampus loh!
My sister took me to an Indian restaurant...actually bengali indian restaurant to eat Indian food. Comments of the food...:
''INDIAN FOOD IN MALAYSIA ROCKS THE WORLD MAN!'' ~Aaron~
The way the orang putih makan indian food in colchester is too westernized already. The place was situated in an old British house and for a restaurant is smaller compared to the ones back home. The way they makan there is like with knives and fork. Cheh! Tak syok la makan dengan knives. Basically the place was too westernized. You don't have the freedom to walk around and see what's going on in the restaurant. Everything had to be eaten with something. Indian Malaysian food is far ten times better coz you can makan with ur hands and make noise as much as you want unlike here.
So at the end of the makaning session, i pulled a joke to the waiter in front of my family.
''Teh tarik O satu...tak mau gula!''...''Macha, todi ada tak?''...
My brother in law n sister had to hide their faces...coz to them is like so embarassing...but to my mum n dad...they laughed. Seriously, these orang putih dont know how to taste real Indian food. Para macha sekalian, the Indian food you brought to Malaysia is far much better in colchester!!! For that macha, I salute you more.
Well, gotta log off. I know school will be reopening very soon so happy schooling & i will be back to visit you guys. So don't forget me when I'm back! So long people. Happy new year 2007. See you guys.
p/s: Wei Liang, Happy birthday yah! Will get you something. With pravin as well.
Chao. Byez.
i promised not to write any blogs during exam...but looks like i broke that promise :P
okay since i'm online might as well spill certain things...and btw, i don't hav any papers 2 moro morning
it all started with bm on monday wif sej paper 1...everyone was just so glad to get rid of da bm paper...torture paper...coz of da number of pages and words we had to write esp for the essay! call me a nut case but i just simply enjoyed writing the bm essay...haha
then came sejarah the shading paper, that's a relief...so glad that i didn't have to write but just circle, shade, erase, and sit right where i was...but the thinking part was a torture...i was really worn out by the time we left after 4.30pm
before that, bm paper 2 was like...so selamba, u don't hav to really crack ur head EXCEPT 4 peribahasa, rangkai kata...the komsas questions were like a breeze...very direct n straight forward...all were expecting gaya bahasa for quest 4 but...persoalan and pengajaran came out...i went -_-''''... huh??!!? oh well, at least i could ace it...phew...however, i smell something fishy and something isn't right!
on tuesday was english...finally something i could express wif...surprise, surprise i outpassed myself for writing 5 pages on question 2...but didn't had time to recheck! wehhhh!!!...hope that i had NO mistakes...then came paper 2, i was hoping that it could crack my head a bit but then again...it just went like a breeze...and i was practically day dreaming and wasting time...surprise???
but i didn't had time day dreaming coz sejarah 2 was killin me! haiz...the questions were something unexpected...ICT came out as question 4...
aiya, i should had read that stuuuuupiiidd part! it came out during trial and suddenly ****pooofffff*** it just showed up in SPM...fortunately the essay questions weren't that bad...and a new format again...Malaysian education do hav lots of surprises every year. Sejarah is always famous for straight forward questions but this time, there was a famous quote i saw somewhere "Berdasarkan pengetahuan sejarah anda,...."
***Spoiler ! Alert & warning to all future SPM takers, this is a KBKK or CCTS question and needs candidates to really think what opinion you have to give when something happens like the effects...you can give any points u wish.....dat ez?...heh heh...think again...AS LONG as it's in the text book and related to the matter somehow...so don't waste marks on this type of question***
right, so i had to stay there and scratched me scalp till it bled (well didn't really happen) and just wrote more than what it was required...just say i was glad essay helped me...(hopefully!) during the exam, almost 3/4 of 2 classes cabut n larikan diri after 45 minutes and i guess they left their papers empty!
i would like to applaud those who stayed for two and a half hours to complete the paper eventhough it was tough! Bravo...yeah, by de end of da day i passed out in bed...ahhh! Sweet dreams then >>!
today was maths...and to me it was fine...just a few slips here and there...but hopefully i dont get a B...haha...luv maths u noe! friday is EST...and i juz hope that it is not a overall general statement, just hope that comparing comes out if not...scratch me head till it bleeds again?...i think i would run out of hair
just 6 subjects down and hopefully that i can go through it...and on 4th dec MERDEKA..and total freedom!
okay leave you guys here to comment! cheerio!
Okay, so this should be my last blog before my SPM starts and I think I should be active after that...
To all who are reading this blog, as another year comes and we are about to move our seperate ways I would like to apologize for what I had done for the past few years in high school since Form 1.
I know that I had hurt your feelings badly due to some words I used or my attitude towards you. I now realized it due to a great help of some friends who slapped me in the face and awoken me from my illusion all this while.
Yan hua, if you are reading this...a thousand thanks.
First of all I don't expect any apologies from you guys, just that I need to tell out what had resided inside me for a very long time. I know that I had to change my attitude somehow. Some of you may think that I'm such an idiotic person who would just pook my nose into others business but I don't think I'm such. I'm still trying anyway to change so give me some time okay?
Next, I may be cold or unfriendly to some people (can't remember but I think I did) which I think it's true. I don't mean to be that and I would like to express how sorry I am. To be honest, seeing people with friends who just hang around with them makes me jealous...haha... But that's okay cause I understand it now.
I do wanna show you guys that I had change and making the change isn't easy at all. Therefore just give me more time after my SPM and by then, God bless, I will start to accept people around me.
After realizing the truth from some people who would just shoot me in the face and tell me what went wrong, I really felt ashamed and embarassed that previously I was such a person and would do even such a thing. It just reminds me of the Johari window - you can't see yourself but others can see. So maybe I neglected this part actually. Until now, I am actually quite embarassed to see most of my comrades (form 5's actually) and my seniors cause of my previous self.
Currently I'm listening to Michael Bolton's - Go the Distance from Disney's Hercules. The music is very soothing, has strong impact on our lives as we go on and the lyrics are very meaningful. Go the distance here means that no matter what is in your way, you will go and there will be a place where a hero's welcome would be indeed welcomed. Hopefully I can imagine that sort of adventure.
Well, time's up for me and anybody reading this, do feel free to comment. Thanks guys.
-Frends 4 eva-
it's normal for u to go to anyone of ur frenz house during hari raya n eat the normal stuff like lemang, ketupat, kuih bahulu n etc...
but hav you ever tried going to a house that serves not only hari raya dishes but also mouth watering dishes like roasted lamb, roasted chicken wings, disappearing fudge chocolate cake topped wif x-tra toppings of chocolate whipped cream, n orange cake with yogurt toppings...arghh!!! guarantee u guys will fall flat to ur knees n begging to taste the awesome food...unfortunately, i dont think i can hav this capacity to prepare for CNY!...
anywayz, it all started at 11am today when me dad was supposed to come back to go to his frenz house...but unfortunately some deli delying happenned and somebody forgot to buy fruits 4 his frend...just great!... and so our adventure began when we had to go to The Store to get the fruits...
after half an hour at the store, went to his frends house & me dad n mum got into the battle of determining how to park the car!...gosh, buying fruits is one thing...but parking? unbelievable! fine, forget the car park n move on to the main programme
so we went into this house and my eyes were on the food first...didn't start until we greeted the host...impolite also wat not to greet...and after the greetings, i prepared the culinary "weapons" to tackle the meat...n i tell u...even the culinaries were bigger n longer unlike the normal ones dat we use in the house...
next the foods galored everywhere, gosh! u should see the mouth watering dishes...*air liuh meleleh*...argh,...it's so cool...u hav the ketupat, lemang, putumayum, lamb chop, roasted lamb, chicken wings,........!!!!!!!!!!!!
so i actually helped dad's frend in eating...i tool 4 helpings of the main course...and for the delicacies i had two helpings...call me a pig...fine! but i just loved eating!
eating is also another hobby i hav...anybody who is reading this blog be prepared if i come to ur house...but don worry lah...i wont destroy anything...except the table and chairs if i overeat! haha
so feel free to leave ur precious comments if u wan to...okay, see u guys next time in the next blog!
ever wondered how it feels to be caged up (thanx to ur brain 4 makin u stay in da house) & get cooped up in the house when it's nearing exam and somehow during a week break...u feel so tempted to go up to ur parents and say "mum, i m going out to a frend's house coz it's dead boring in da house"...or "mum i need to go out or i'll die of suffocation! blek blek...cough cough...arghh...i need air"
having a one week break for the rayas & deepavali is great but seriously it's kinda dull being in the house all alone when u haven't got anyone live beings to talk to (exclude parents) & u just grab ur little rascal pets who just pee around the house like it's ur garden...eww...the only living objects in ur house dat can't talk!
previously i was kinda home sick but now...as u grow (not gonna put older...figure it out urself) you will feel as if ... all hell must break loose...once awhile u hav got to go outside n feel like u r free from the clutches of the house! but then frenz is another problem!
i noe...i noe...i don't even call some of dem n ask " hey, u free or not...wanna go yum cha?" "why not go for a movie?"...then the reply in their mind "going out wif a freak?...don't think so"...i dont know, i can't seem to be on the same channel as them...but dis aint a prob yet, i just hav to worry for exam...but i wanna be free from books esp after spm..only then i worry
fortunately this festive season is a season whereby everyone goes out n enjoy themselves...forget everything n just eat! eating is good...coz it really puts ur mind off certain things esp studies...ah...eating...it's paradise! if u put one spoon of curry or lemang or ketupat or anything else, u will just dream of it n float in the air n say "hmmm.....nice! I WAN MORE!"...now it's the time to forget all miseries n enjoy wat is in front of u...
another thing is i only hav 2 cars...dont even dare approach me mum n say "mum, i'm desperate for a another car...nvr mind...just something small, let say a proton satria..." LOLZ, i bet dey r going to flip their mind...i'm rather poor in cars...i just desire something simple...coz i hav to fight the second car wif me dad! i do realize that maintaining n owning a car is not dat simple!...u hav the road tax, petrol, servicing to do...gosh...i dont wanna burden me parents further...make dat triple burden coz economy is not good nowadays! however, i just hope for da best...i need to discuss wif pple who own a car n see how dey cope with it! i take in consideration of everything so no offence guys!
anyway, i gotta go n do work...spm is in 27 days...sigh! after dis, MERDEKA...n time for outdoor work!...but first mus hav hols...can't wait for it to end!!!! sigh..